I’m just honestly so drained right now. i cant eat sleep nothing ive been just sitting here crying for the past 2 hours. the hardest thing to ever do is watch the one person you love more than anything in the world love someone else. i feel so bad for his best friend he knows im still in love with the other guy and hes still trying to be with me. i just cant help but love him still its not easy to just stop loving someone you’ve been so close with for so long. and then his best friend wants to tell me that he cares more about her but he still cares about me. he told me he gave him a hour lecture about how to treat me and all this shit bout me. that’s what else kills me is that we know every single little detail about each other. I’m never gonna have those late night walks with him talking about nothing, no more hugs kisses or anything and i don’t know what to do.